Tuesday, 20 February 2018

You tell me

Getting thrown away the paper you gave in front of your face.
Silent treatment to your child self because of denying the curfew rule.
Was not allowed to argue even for one to two sentences when they did it for many times in front of the kids.

You tell me what adult is.
You tell me what fairness is.

Sunday, 21 May 2017


You didnt ask when do I want to go back,
you didnt reconfirm when will my paper start,
you didnt ask anything for this past few days.

I asked you,
I. Faking. Asked. You.
Whether I shud go now.
What did you reply me?
I dont even know whatever I did to you for a few while back.
What I know you were mad at him.
Why the hell was I the one who get that?

I tried to cool myself down.
I have pride.
I promised myself before.
I cheered myself back.
Because no one was able to do that to me.


Whatever you were thinking of,
I wanted to go because I want to fvking study.
I cant even study now.
I started to read,
and here I am,
not able to fvking focus.

And hey,
look at this girl,
she can send you a cheerful message.
What a good girl.

Who do I want to talk about this to?
Not to them.
Not to anyone.
It will sound like I'm talking bad on you.

Hey look,
what a good girl I am.

Lets just hope I wont do anything bad.
I want to show it.
But my sane self says no.