Goodbye.

I was too naive.
Or maybe am still.

I thought those who wear familiar would be the same.
I thought those who I considered allies would be the same.
They are not.

It's all started there.
When she ended her relationship.
She became wild, almost.
No one to control her anymore,
no one to make her feels bind anymore.
She socialized herself with more friends.

***
She found herself someone who cares for her.
She found herself someone who will take her anywhere.
She tried to keep him secret,
except that he's a transporter.

***
She thinks she can follow her close friend.
She trusts her close friend.
She thinks her close friend is an angel.

***
They hanged out.
They talked.
I never know about it.
All I knew was when she exposed,
"She got someone."
When I was "What?"
"Oh never mind."
Thanks, there I knew I missed something.

***
They went out.
Of course, with guys, the only thing I hate.

Thought she went home first, she wont join.
Of course, I was too naive.
How would I expect that much when I'm such an introvert and antisocial?

Of course, I would never know about that if I dont have Instagram.

***
She had something going on so she didn't come back.
Three became two in a day.
She didn't say anything, nothing.

She came back.
She never told from the start.

And then,
"You didnt know? She didnt tell you?"
What, even you skipped A, now you're telling me that?

They talked like they own the world.
Of course, I was a stranger.

***
"We want to go outside, wanna join?"
"Nah"
"Why?"
"If I say it you wouldnt want to hear."

So there, they go.
I'm glad she invited me, though,
the most grateful.
And I was left alone.

Despite being 19-20, they got back to dormitory at 10.

Were gonna have some time to hang out for her home-made,
so I went,
because if I dont, I dont know how much further would these wounds go.

Passed the "angel" friend with her their friend,
their hang out friend,
a girlfriend of one of the guys (I think).

Arrived.
Thank God there were other friends.

They,
sat on other table.
Spent their remaining times with the guys.
Lame.

Me,
gather with the other friends and joke around.
Talk about introverts.
That was fun.

We left once the owner started to close the place.
I was left in the dark for a certain someone told me to take my things myself.
She didnt look back.
God, how great my friend is.

They went to other side,
despite being some people who share with me the same place to sleep,
didnt tell me anything.
Maybe they forgot to.
Just joking.

***
Chuckles, chuckles.

I thought I should mix in,
after all the injuries.
Damn wrong.

I was just asking about the money for the things I ordered.
The one I wasnt talking to:
Dont even look at me,
despite being one of my friends.

And I tried again.
Well, just to make sure I didnt miss anything about school.
"What are you doing?"
That one,
- you see, I can read, okay -
seems uncomfortable to answer.
Well, the other one laughed, awkwardly, duh.
"Something."

I was really too much of a naive.
They were settling their -whatever thing is- with the guys.

Chuckles, chuckles.

***
to be continued.