Numb

I probably am (one of the) loneliest person.
"Probably" because I dont feel it.

Everyone's been either went home or had call with their parents once or twice in this month.
Check the call and message history, there's nothing other than daily wake up message or monthly deposited money.
There's a group of friends, but not necessarily that one friend.
And all of them have the same status or distance.
Not to mention 22 years without s.o,
and having the 'person to be called as someone you like',
rather, it's just 'someone to be paid attention to'.
No special feelings like their happy faces when having conversation with their loved ones.

Not that I'm being ungrateful.
Not even complaining.
Just wondering,
am I really lonely?