Petty

Been reading about how one can be so paranoid towards relationships.
Seclusion,
afraid of being rejected,
afraid of being left alone,
creating walls.
I know I have it.
But I keep forgetting the experiences.
When did I get secluded?
When was I rejected?
Were those really happened?
Was it just me being over-sensitive?

Suddenly it came.
"Yes, this."
When you think about them a lot,
but you're just one of many to them.
You consider your time with them is precious,
they just bailed out on you without further notice.
Not to mention fake promises.

This petty matter to them but important to you,
how hurtful it is.