excuses

i mean, i dont know... its always been like that, you preferring the guys more than us.  i mean, i too would probably be treated that way one day, but--

i mean, i too dont prefer their presence, but thats just me having social anxiety.

i mean, she also has her own fault to begin with, with her personality and things, but--

she's a family, you know? it would make a totally different situation if you made it everyone not coming but, to make one comes and the others dont for whatever reason?

and then you made out so many 'scientific' excuses to excuse yourself?

she's probably the only one who has feelings and emotions being expressed.
she's probably the only one who would contact you with no reason.
she's probably the only one who would come to you.

what more, on her sad, difficult days, you didnt even invite her nor to make sure she's okay?

doesnt everything sound so unfair? im at no words to think anymore