Sunday 5 January 2020

Lets write this so I be consistent

Because you are who you are.
Because I've known you for about 4 years.
Because your extroversion character where you always find a new partner makes you forget other things.
Because it's always like that with extroverts.

Yes I guess I'm at fault too for never saying anything.
Well how do you expect you would react if I tell you anyway.
It's your character, there's nothing can be changed.

You said we were mutual,
you would say anything you want and I would say anything I want.
I figured though, I've never told everything to you.
There's no mutual, its all just sweet words.

Then you said I was one of the people you would look for.
Then you went to everywhere else with other people,
and there I was, just doing literally nothing.

And then I thought I should talk to you and depend on you from time to time.
You said okay.
No slightest hint of you were hesitating.
And there's no news after that.

What in the world is "You are my good friend" even means?

What do you expect if things keep on happening for years?
Its so toxic I even get depressed and anxiety attack at nights