My Opinion, My Opinion, My Opinion...

Ini hanya pendapat saya shj,
saya bukan cuba utk tarik org utk setuju.

Ramai bg nasihat/tegur...
"Kenapa nk kena letak gambar sendiri utk prof. pic.?"
"Tak elok la letak gambar sendiri"
"Boleh bawa fitnah" (?)
dsb. Aku tak ingat

Seriously,
dont just say without even think.

Ada beberapa orang yg letak sbb ada tujuan tertentu.
Mungkin ada yg letak sbg tanda persahabatan.
Mungkin juga ada yg letak utk bg orang kenal dia bila dia add orang.
dsb, aku tak tahu.

Tp still,
fine,
letak gambar selca memang x boleh terima la.
Lagi-lagi zaman sekarang yg kebanyakan manusia dah lupa diri,
nak sangat jadi itik, ikan buntal, burung, dsb.
Yg tu, betapa panjang aku fikir pun aku tak dapat penyelesaian jawapan yg logik
melainkan:
"Aku comel. Semua orang kena tengok muka comel aku"
Yeah.

So, kesimpulannya...
aku sungguh tidak berpuas hati kpd mereka yg perkecilkan sangat dgn org yg letak gambar sendiri dkt segala account social network.
Kau cuba fahamkan sikit apa orang rasa, boleh tak.

Sekian.

Mouse mcm ****, menyampah betul aku

Saw the pics,
look like the guys were having fun, even though it was a hot day.

But
why,
why,
why?
did I felt so awful, restless and upsetting?
*Not I, but we.

I got the answer, though.

We were really chased the time.
I mean, REALLY.
That we forgot to teamwork.

It's not like
"if we dont chase the time, we'll fail"
but
"if we work as a team, insyaAllah, Allah will help us".

Plus, if we do fail,
nothing's gonna happen la.

Just,
why didn't we just have fun at that time?
Why did a person felt so hopeless
and a person felt so responsible
and a person felt left out
and a person almost gave up
and a person just keep on walking?

I remember,
watching others,
they looked so happy
and guided each other.

And there's,
I know her,
I dont remember much why do I know her,
but I know,
she's a person with
"Remember, we do this to have fun. It's ok if we dont win!"
I like her for this.

I dont blame anyone.
I blame myself.
I dont know what to blame myself
but I hated myself.

Though,
I dont think any of them kept on walking even everyone were already running.
Lets try to look in another view,
it was like
everyone's leaving you behind and you keep thinking "I've been left out" but you dont move on, never.
That,
I do blame you.

That's it.
I'm sorry,
so sorry,
I cant ignore things in my mind until I confess.

And sorry for everything.

nigahiga

- Tadi aku jalan2, lepas tu aku jumpa xxx dan yyy so aku pun &#*$&#*@$! dan dia pun x+y = 100% f(x): x+1 jadi aku pun ......

- Tak faham. Apa maksudnya?

- Alaa, faham faham je la.

Whadahel?
Bajet macam orang boleh faham?
Kau ingat semua orang ada otak kau ke apa?
Dah tu apa motif post semua kod bagai,
kalau nak suruh orang 'faham faham je la',
kalau taknak terangkan bila orang tak 'faham faham je la'?!!

MAPOTI
MAPOTI
MAPOTI
MAPOTI

BM + BI

Sambil menunggu download yg masyaAllah-nya lama,
aku pun membelek post lama blog ini.

As the time goes,
aku tak faham apa yg aku pernah tulis.
Punyalah berahsia.
Baca punya baca, baru ingat apa situasi di sebaliknya.

So bila tengok first post,
wow,
it's been a year.

Teringat antara motif menubuhkan blog ini.
- Menjauhi drpd orang yg sensitif
dan nampaknya mereka dah stalk aku dah pun.
Masih ada flashback dlm kepala aku,

dengan bangganya dia cakap:
"I'm reading your blog! ^.^ "

(Sht! I was talking about you there, dont read!)
"Stop reading. It's not for you to read."

Rasanya memang mereka akan bukak blog ni sesedap hati.

Jadi bila fikir balik,
lantak kau lah.
Aku cakap dgn berfikir kau tak baca
tapi kalau kau memang baca
dan terasa,
jangan salahkan aku.
Siapa suruh kau bukak?
Aku tak pernah promote blog ni dkt kau,
sekian.

Kalau dulu,
mungkin aku suka fikir
"Harap kau terasa baca ni, muehehe"
Sekarang bukan lagi.

Sekarang:
"Aku nak menyuarakan isi hati dan perut dan ada orang baca dan faham tapi tak perasan lepas tu melawan, bajet nak takutkan aku."

Aku sudah semakin dewasa.
Wahaha.
Hei, lagi 2 bulan!

Geli

SPM dah habis.
Ya, SPM dah habis.
So semua org pun nak cakap psl
KAHWIN

Seriously?
Ya, ya, fine...
Sekarang, ramai org kahwin awal.
Kahwin awal bkn suatu masalah.
Rasulullah menggalakkan org kahwin utk elak maksiat.
Bercinta lepas kahwin bkn suatu masalah.
Lagi apa,
ayat tipikal org guna utk nak kahwin awal.

Well, aku pun bukan la anti kahwin awal pun
Tapi....
tapi.
Kau jangan pandang kahwin tu suatu perkara mudah boleh tak.

Kau (lelaki) seolah-olah memegang tanggungjawab ayah si perempuan.
Kalau dulu, ayah yg kena jaga anak perempuan,
dosa yg dibuat anak perempuan dipegang oleh ayah.
Anak perempuan nak pergi mana-mana, nak buat apa-apa,
semuanya tanggungjawab ayah.
Dan kau, lelaki.
Bila perempuan itu berkahwin,
kau la pulak yg kena jaga semua tu.
Ingat senang?
Kalau dapat perempuan sensitif, cerewet, banyak songeh,
kau sanggup layan?
Kalau tak layan, apa dia akan buat? Kau pun tak pasti.
Duit lagi...
Mana kau nak carik duit?
Mintak mak bapak?
Pinjam dr mak bapak?
Kau tu lelaki, kerja carik duit utk keluarga,
isteri, anak-anak, mak, ayah.
Bukan mintak mak ayah duit.
Stress sangat, lepas tu tiba-tiba TERlafazkan benda itu.
Susah kan.
Susah kan.
Serious, susah.
Kau pulak dgn bahagia nak melamar bagai.

Masalahnya bukan kahwin.
Ya, kahwin bukan masalah.
Tapi kau kena ada akal.
Kalau belum 18 tahun pun lagi, baru lepas SPM,
dah fikir psl kahwin, kahwin dan kahwin,
itu namanya belum cukup matang.
Lepas SPM kau mmg nak terus kahwin?
Taknak sambung belajar?

Dan perempuan....
Ok, aku malas nak cakap.
Setakat ni, aku tak dengar lagi perempuan lepas SPM yg mengada fikir psl kahwin dgn serius.
Ada tapi...
Well, perempuan bukan ketua keluarga,
bukan perempuan yg kena tentukan kahwin awal,
at least, keluarga.
So,......

Apa pun,
wahai lelaki yg baru nak matang yg fikir dah cukup dewasa padahal baru lepasan SPM,
sedarlah.
Kau bagaikan mangga hijau yg tak matang lagi, masam pulak tu.
Sedar diri sikit.

*Bajet gila aku ckp psl kahwin. Tapi itu kenyataan, kan?*

Hey

Today's weather is nice
(this is so sudden, though it was raining heavily on the evening)

Okay, so the school has just ended.
I mean,
END.
We graduated.
Literally though, we don't yet have our result
and our 'graduation ceremony' held after our exam
but we still have our very last school programme about 3 days later.

It's not like I'm going to typically talk about the graduation and friends and school and so,
but trustfully, I do appreciate these two years, 2012 and 2013.
Those senior years.
I don't really want to list all of them 'cause I might miss some or some people might feel sad or whatever.

But still,
I feel grateful that I have our picture of groups taken.

And now,
we are on our way to adulthood.

To my batch,
Nineteenth96,
good luck,
see you soon.