It's Been Awhile

So.... uhh... since the school holiday has started, I must post something or else someone's gonna scold me. lol

Well, I was thinking of vlogging.
Yeah, I know I'm not the sort of talking-to-camera people.
But I think I should do one or two...
But then, just you wait... If I'm not that lazy to wear some suitable outfit or talk to myself in an empty room.
Yeah, wait.

Ok, here I go.
Something I want to confess.

It happened some months ago.
When my recent mind-condition that time was so much of low self-esteem,
but now too.

I saw a friend, which we grow older together [wait, how old was I again?]
do something that once upon a time I think is impossible for me and any of my known friends to do.

So I was like...
*WHITE EYES* [I know I can do better by attaching some pics but am too lazy to capture through phone which is upstairs, recharging]
"I don't know her... I don't know her anymore"
"Even she... is changing"
"Who am I?"
Yeah, yeah, can't I have any lower self-esteem?

But that's the truth.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know whose fault.
I don't know where did I do wrong.
I don't know.

All I know,
I should find myself and just forget about these low self-esteem things.
Should forget.
Forget.
And it came.

So I spend a night or two thinking of these things
and put the blame on me
like
"Where did I do wrong?"
Well, I actually hate that question,
like, of course, everything you do IS WRONG and why are you still haven't realize that?!

So the nights were just to calm my mind.
And that is.

Now, I still haven't had any idea to settle these problems
but I'm going to play game now.
Goodbye.

Till I upload a vlog, just you wait.
Wait, I'm still going to blog even before started the vlog.