Go All Out!

I'm a happy-go-lucky girl, ha!
The results arent really good but I relief it finally came to the end.
Waiting is hurts, really.

So I'm happy with what I got, seriously.
Some reason is I was expecting worst.
But then,
someone was really mad and sad and upset, .....
for me? Wait, am I emotionless?

It was mine.
My name had written on it and to be exact, there's none of yours
I accepted what has given to me, right after I took a peek.
And you,
I think until now, like, about a week already,
you seem not accepting it, still.

You put the blame on me but you dont know, half of it was yours.
You said I didnt try it good enough.
You said I didnt go serious, at that time.
But actually,
I prayed to have something that makes you gave up on me having something I REALLY dont want.
And I got what I want.
There go another reason.

Then, I took a look at it again, seriously this time.
Oh, I didnt get THAT bad, really. A is the first alphabet, that's all, nothing really important.
Some teachers did say something like that too,
that makes me feel better after those devils's words, thank you :')
And a sister said,
"Maybe that person said that because of your past results"
Yes, indeed. Finally someone understand that :')

The story hasnt finished yet.
I finally told half of the truth what I really interested to.
And here,
"That thing isnt worth it. You wouldnt get a job for that."
"You take this and this and this, arrange them in what I ordered. The thing you want, put it at number three."

You understand that?
No? Then allow me to translate.
"Ones that I want you to be, ones that make you got MONEY = rich is waaaaaay more important than whatever you interested to."

I am giving up to deal with this mind-manipulator.
Even the leader supports whatever I want.
And this person, you, are saying whatever you want.

Despair.
Despair.
Despair.

Let's just do what she wants and leave it all to Allah