Memories

Let's flash back every upsetting memories.
Let's be straight forward, no one's reading anyway.

HH
1)
H: "do you read Zint's?"
me: "You read too?" *excited* "Which do you read?"
H: "I read blah blah blah..."
me: "Ohhh I read that too! Did you read USER?"
H: "Which one?"
me: "that blah blah blah..."
H: "Oh I didnt"
me: "oh I can bring them if you want"

What a wrong step.
My fault to bring them, especially the timing.
She didnt completely read them.
How disappointing.

2)
N: "H said she want to join us"
me: "well I dont really care but I warn you, you might not be able to catch us"
****
Since all of us have our characters, I thought I shudnt left her,
me: "H, blah blah Myou blah, do you wanna join?"
blah blah blah
H: "so my name is HH? yay~"

False.
She didnt even remember her own name.

3)
me: "How do you want your character be like?"
H: "like this, like that..."
Months later, ...
me: "I think I wanna change our characters a bit. H, do you like it to be orange?"
H: "I'm all good"

I dont think she even remember what the character looked like before.

HN
1)
me: "I was thinking to make us boys"
me: "N (character) will be a playboy + pervert (lol)"
****
T: "N (character) is a pervert afterall~"
***
N: "I'm N (character) afterall~"

I was feeling good, that time.
She never mentioned anything until now, right this time.

2)
There are many things randomly issued by her, half-heartedly.
No, I think quarter.

UN
1)
N forgot her own character name.
She did forgot other characters, but oh well, why do I have to expect fans?

But she caught up on most things.

TY
1)
Y: "Y (character) is cool~"

2)
Other things are okay, I guess,
because we had many things in common.
Except I dont really have much responds about mine,
mostly about hers.
But, again, oh well, why do I have to expect fans?

ST
1)
She didnt remember her own pair,
always confused between pair, her own character and gender-bent one.
But oh well, why do I have to expect fans?

2)
Speak of half-hearted.
Unless is mentioned, you will never heard from her.

SH
1)
If to be compared with others,
might be the best.
Always gave me ideas of hers so sudden.
She's my senpai/sensei afterall, what'd you expect?

Except
2)
She has her schedule.
I cant blame her.

FF
1)
Never had shown interest to any of my art.
Dont know if she kept inside
but nope, not for Myou.
She's just a copycat afterall.

NS
1)
Faker.
Liar.
Saying things like she likes too (or at least interested to),
asking "What else do you have?"
Next thing you know,
she didnt even remember I had ever recommend her.

2)
Over-react.
Knows, like, two or three,
and talking like she knows everything.
I dont actually mind if you just say you dont know.

3)
Yeah, liar.
Saying interested to,
when I started talking, like, Kanou,
until now never remembered.

NS oops same initials
1)
Speak of half-hearted, too.
S: "Eh~ You did this? Do me too~"

Never asked again.

2)
Tried to join me,
but you cant force yourself into things you cant take.
I can see your insincerity.
I never forced you to join, btw.

n-s why are they having same initials
1)
Also tried to join,
but just couldnt catch up.
Simply gave up but dont worry, I didnt mind.
At least you tried,
tried to give up.

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It's not like I blame them.
No, that's a lie.
I do.
I dont mind being alone.
It is a thing that uncommon, so I dont mind.
I just hate half-hearted, insincere.
You dont like, just say it.
You dont have to pretend.
I dont need that.
But dont also give me weird look.
What, you think we arent human because we like uncommon things?

Anyway,
now that I've take it out,
I am officially not trusting anyone anymore.

The path I walk is always empty after all.